Happiness is a Hollow Feeling.

Part II, following 'Loneliness is an Empty Gun.'

I see your Cheshire smile

I want to break my teeth

I’m so torn between the two,

The three, those who earned

My love somewhere along

The way, lost by the wayside

Sits my soul, alone.

I’m happy, and I don’t want to be,

I don’t deserve to be,

Why you? Why me?

Hollow like the scarecrow,

Stuffed full of the nothingness

That is love,

Love!

Blasphemous dirt,

Amounting to nothing,

But holding the highest value,

Holding my heart in your hands,

Two, three, fighting, over one,

Over me?

Cheaper by the dozen,

I suppose I should find

Nine more, open the door

To all of them,

Was it you who I told that to?

What’s your name again?

I can play that way,

It’s a wonderful life,

It’s a terrible day,

I’d like to change the color

Of my sky blue eyes

So I will never feel the same.

I’d like to hold you forever,

Or for a year, or for a day,

Until you get up and go away,

Until I drown in the ocean of your soul,

Until you tell me not to kiss you,

Until I hate you too,

When your rocket goes,

When sobs send me

Rocking myself to sleep,

When the dealer

Turns the final card,

When your hand

Ceases to hold onto mine,

And finally folds,

When your kiss fails

To send me reeling:

That’s when happiness

Becomes a hollow feeling.

Reviews

[Emily Rose]

Ooh, I really like this, and how well it fits in with the first of the series. The poem progresses with great energy and allusion - rocket to rocking, holding hands to holding a hand of cards, the "it's a wonderful life" reference... it all fit together quite well. It's bitter, but there's a little sweetess in there too - just the fact that you can write about it and let your anger out of your system is helpful. I hope you can climb out of the rabbit hole and into the light of day soon, miss Alice.

[Ralph Poleski]

Fantastic, with glorious allusions to antiquity!

[Angel]

Everything you wrote in this presents a part of you, and I personally like that kinda rawness in a person's writing......Well, some people don't like the band death cab for cutie; i do, and in a way, it sounds like their lyrics in My heart is an empty room, which in my opinion had beautiful lyrics, however, I feel yours is 10X better because its more to the point and shows your voice very well...I enjoyed reading it