The Fall I Take Over and Over Again

I asked this of a person once,

He'd said "It is the most wonderful of them all.

I said "Yes! I would try it, give my all."

I'd fall heart first, and I did.

I fell hard into the bottomless pit.

No! I do not regret jumping.

No! I said, I do not regret any of it.

 

Yes! I still am falling.

 

I guess the rope which held me,

It broke of, and now I know not if I will.

If I will hit the bottom, bruised and battered.

 

He asked me "Would you do it again?"

I said "I'd do it again everytime,

Everytime I got up I would throw myself again,

In the same pit, for the same you."

 

He said "Know this foolish girl,

The jagged rocks do burst open the finest,

The finest of them all fall and lay open."

 

I said, "I aint the finest dear man.

I am the worst of the lot.

I am the worst for I could not,

I could not provide enough screams for the fall,

I could not do so much, but yet still I fall.

The finest would be the one,

Who took care, took care of every little thing.

Took care and count of every breath,

Of every meal taken in,

Of every puff of smoke that comes out.

Of every broken breath dragged,

Dragged till hell froze over.

And yet I did None of those,

But I Still fall. Fall with everything

And nothing."

 

He looked at me and said,

"Maybe tis be your illusion little one,

But the vigour which is in you,

Says of a fall true to you.

You stayed true to you and that is that."

 

But I said," What does it matter staying true?

I still couldn't.

But I don't regret any of it old man,

Nothing I do regret."

 

After which i smiled, closed my eyes,

And felt his fingers lace mine,

His eyes so big and bright.

Diamonds set in pure innocence.

A smile with teeth perfectly set in cages of

pink cady floss.

toes played with, whispers exchanged.

 

Yes I am in my land of happiness now.

And I would fall, in every lifetime over and over,

For those eyes, that smile, those hands, those toes.

I would fall.