Fade Away

I used to try to sleep,

But I'd close my eyes and think.

My mind would wander on

Through the memories of my life.

Some were in the past

And some were here and now.

I'd see myself in shadows

Just hiding form the future,

Waiting for a hope

That I knew would never come.

I remember that fateful night

Cold and dark and cruel,

But that was in a yester-year

I just learned not to feel.

I despise my nievety

Stupid no doubt I was,

For I trusted someone I had loved

And paid a price so dear.

At nights I lie and listen

For the footsteps in the hall,

The grating of the lock

I sit and hide and wait.

I doubt that hell is worse

Than the torture in ones mind,

So once again I will go back

And just fade away for a time.

Someday I might be rescued

Although my hopes are slim,

I'll simply wait for that day

By hiding my soul from him.