My Last Goodbye

Each night I sit and think

Of horrors in my past,

They hold me tight in their embrace

Coming quick and fast.

 

My heart has bled too much

My soul has felt despair,

For me there is just one release

From all the fear out there.

 

So I've closed my heart forever

Never to feel again,

No more tears no more laughs

Life- no more would I defend.

 

Hoping every night

Will bring a painless end,

So into a black abyss

My mind would soon descend.

 

A broken body in hard to heal

A broken heart is near impossible,

Never can a person live with pain

And find life yet desirable.

 

So I made myself an empty shell

Void of spirit and soul,

For they have gone so far below

Where feelings can not go.

 

Someday my heart could heal or die

Although I'm not sure which,

So now I say my last goodbye

For me dying is the best.