Refuge of My Weariness; or, Above & Beyond

just like a fairytale
there exists a princess
hidden far away
distant as ocean waves
yet her passions as effervescent
as they
searching for a face
in the crystal atmospheres

sometimes i see the same face in the
cumulus clouds
as if i could find my
guardian angel in the sky's
lavender shrouds

i don't know who she is,
really; but my faults
seem to pass, if only a little.
my heart beats out of time
from the worldly
clocks that could never
understand.

I'm still breathing in the
flow of faux reality,
yet I'm sure you're real.

i don't know who she is,
really; but at least
i can breathe oxygen
when her warm sun
glitters my cold dull.

yes, it's me, chị Nhi.
i love you, em Nguyễn:
just as surely as breezes
let chimes echo in the wind.

i don't know who i am,
either. for so limited
is the mind. what i
know is that my heart
and soul have known you &
i since the beginning
of heaven's stars.
i don't believe in space and time.

all anyone has in life
to hold is their dreams.
i wish i had you to hold
when i cry. i wish you'll
never say goodbye. because
even if i never witness the
flower of your face,

you are my favorite place.
i wander as a shadow
without a home.
so please stay.
so please stay,
always.

even when i perish someday,
i'll find you on
the other side.
i cherish you like
a jewel of unspoken
value.

and, if nothing else,
i believe in a word
you taught me,

and it's called mãi mãi .

i am a sick teardrop
and you are the
angel princess i have heard on high,
illuminating destruction
with light.
thank you for being so very kind.