2/5/1998

2 / 5 / 1998

it's been a long, long time

since i saw you last

if there is no future

& no past

why am i asking you to come back?

i will not cry i will not bleed 

i will not die i will not speak of cotton candy

but maybe i won't sleep

i will not talk of eternity

don't know what i believe

all i know is

the happiness, the LA beach,

the tragedy mixed in our drinks

the FUN the metal the trashing hotels

making faces in photos

that time you were wasted on the roof

the laughter we could not keep to ourselves

the warmth in their eyes

then the kids lined up in the streets

i could not forget the helplessness

of their cries or their falling

down on the concrete

i will not look up to the sky

for what is already inside

all i know is everything

all i know is nothing

i'm just so glad you were here

the times we all had,

how could i ever feel sad about that?

(i will not ask why

i will not--believe in good-byes)