YOU DONT KNOW ME!! YOU CANT UNDERSTAND ME!!....no wonder you look at me funny

 

Trapped in a circle

Thousands of corners are closing in on me
Falling tears split my life

Untouchable to the ones I love
But really?
Who can be heard through sound proof glass?

 

Looking down

The view reveals emptiness...

But, looking up?

The Earth mocks me
The skies fool me
The heavens forbid me

 

HOW does claustraphobia find me even when I hide in the dark?!
JUST

To tear at my flesh                     and eat my once precious soul

CERTIAN

moments of existence

DO

have feeling

NOT      love
                     NOT                                   hapiness
      NOT                               sadness

 BUT

Horror                                  Terror

strikes                                  flows
       at               -AS-          through
     my                                      my
   face                         blood stream
 

Possesing EVERY fiber in my being
leaving NO place

for LOVE

-or-

for Hapiness

I would scream for hours
I would yell at the top of my lungs
Throw my arms up into the air
And CRY OUT for someones...
anyones...help
If I could even convince myself to believe it had a purpose
...yea...
I would

It's not that they can't hear
It IS that they won't listen

Their ears are not subjected to any handicap

They are engaged to their hearts

Which chose my fate

to be hurt...
to be torn...

 

I am the puzzle people look at,
and don't even TRY to put together
That girl you get a glimpse of
as you pass her on the street
That sour and yet oddly unique note in music
that only a certain ear can hear the beauty in.
that person just a breath behind
 

YOU know me as THESE things
And yet it IS these things
That I am NOT

IM NOT A PUZZLE!!!!
I'm just a cypher without a key
I'm ot THAT girl
I'm the one next to her...smiling at you
I'm not the music notes
I AM THE MUSIC!!
I'm not a breath behind
I'm jusr so far ahead you don't understand it

you DO NOT know me as THESE things
but it IS these things
THAT I AM!!
you don't know ME...
how can you possibly understand?
*scoffs*
*shakes head with tear filled eyes*
*smirks*
*begins to walk away*
*pauses*
*sighs*
no wonder you looked at me funny...
*pauses*

Author's Note

your response?

Reviews

[BjH]

yes
i agree with mr dead lover down there.
although not dead and not a lover i agree. keep writing.
it is the layout that gives this a voice
but then again
you know that
because that is WHY YOU DID IT!
yes
cheers'm'dears
benjamin

[Dead lover]

I love this because I can relate very strongly,
Keep writing!

[Zak]

Seems like a compilation of all the things you feel when people try and...study you. Try to make you theirs, even though...you are your own person. You are the music, and they need to find that special note that only certain people can hear. Passion flows through this, and the way it was written gives it meaning. Good work!

~COG

[Weaza]

Wow...Just wow. It was extremely wonderful poem. Sad, yet, curious. Awesome job! This is a beautiful (but awfully sad) poem :/ I love how you actually PUT yourself in the poem it seems really rather than just words on paper or on the computer :] Continue Writing!

~Weaza~