I don't understand..can you?

I don't expect you to understand...not even I do

I've been crying for six months now...

I don't understand,

how can it POSSIBLY hurt this much?

the pain, it won't leave me alone.. 

I gave him my heart in confidence that he'd take care of it

but..instead he put it through a shredder

and watched as I felt my knees slowly weaken,

everything got blurry,

I couldn't hear the one's who care crying out for me

it all went black

..and that's the last thing I remember..

I woke up

the doctors:in white

My room:white,

bed:white

sheets:white

me:paler than I've ever been

Losing myself to you

losing myself to myself

or just losing...they all have the same ending.

They crowded around me

so many questions

so little answers...

tears fell

mine

theirs

they treated me like an ameba

locked me in a room and

watched

studied

wrote

everything I did...

I was NEVER  alone..

each day I felt a part of my soul leave me

they thought they were helping,

but they were slowly tearing me apart

now they have

and they let me go

to see what I'd do

I can barely remember how to breath without a machine

and they think I'll know what to do?

well...I'm sorry..

I don't

Reviews

[Ryan Dulac]

Very good!

[raining]

you should real "ariel" by sylvia plath. this reminds me of her writing. confessional writing.