Red Winged Angel

This is a poem that just popped almost literally into my head while I was reading a romance story. I got depressed so this is what came from it.

Red Winged Angel

You say that you know me
But do you really?
You say that you see me
But your eyes are closed.
You say that you love me
But your heart isn't mine.

If you ever need me
You know where I'll be.
If you want me
You know where I hide.

I love you
But this red winged angel has
To fly away,
Love is painful
But so is not being loved at all.

My blood has turned these
Pure white wings of mine to 
The color of my hearts blood.

You hurt me so don't expect me to stay
But if you need me
You know where I fly.
Pray and maybe you'll find why
I committed suicide.

Author's Note

I was depressed, but I am not going to kill myself, this is just a poem so that I can relieve this hurt that I feel because the one I love isn't even real.