untitledA Poem by monono
hidden, unbidden, under acquiescing silence, for
work is purely functional, so is play -- relax you must. inexpressible remains with me, for the master shrilly, austerely hands me a list of things to write and speak: it seeks, it demands, it violates in its criteria. what have you to say: what redress it is that you seek. voice forfeited, except no silence either... speak: silence is defiant. Speak what they approve, read what they have written, write as they dictate. to mirror: I stare at my reflection, daring its double to move, to stray from the confines of the frame, but it sits, permitted words stricken with a purpose: to type the man into being. The watchful gaze of others, most of all, my fearful knowing: a knowing of who I am for them. The presentness of being, a promise for the future that one should not break, not even in imagination. (but is it illicit to imagine? is not being different from seeing and feeling? I write--to see, to feel.) still it scrapes me, shapes me my construction in their constriction yet the more of them I disown, the less I am my own. Freedom exists in a frail tender balance, the tipping of which control is submission. I steer the eye now; the gaze of the words will follow the body. And the body, forming a single mind. A moment here and there, doubt creeps, a stammer and stutter for validation: from them to commend you, to legitimate them. the body now irrelevant, work precedes, determines physicality insipid, tasteless, borrowed on the primary passions, but now flattened, indistinct, de-sensationalised. sense to make, no nonsense to take recalcitrant: starting, halting, painful is expression. stealing breath-less moments: to pause... the body froths and wracks, screams to move, finally restless, in a tiredness of no work.
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