Only as a friend.

A poem I wrote about a realization I had in my life.

Those fateful words,
Spilt from your lips,
"I only loved you as a friend"

These words meant the truth.
He never loved me as I loved him,
He never thought of me as I did,
Every I love you was a lie.

What kind of cruel joke are you trying to play?
Messing with my heart?
Do you just want to break me?

Every tear I shed for you,
And this is how you repay me.
Saying you never loved me.
What kind of game are you playing?

Every "sweet dreams"
Every sweetly spoken sentence,
All my hopes & all my dreams of us,
Shattered with one simple sentence.

I don't want to believe it,
I don't want to think that you never loved me,
For I have loved you for so long.
I don't want it to be over.

But all along, it was a lie.
And even now,
With my heart torn into pieces,
I still find it in my mind not to be angry at you.

All the pain you caused me,
All the tears I've cried,
Good and bad.
All for you.

I'll never understand why you don't see things like I do.
Why you do what you do.
Why you don't love the people who are best for you.
I guess I'll never understand.

After all is said and done,
I'm still the person you can come to,
You can still trust me,
Even of you don't love me.


I will always, love you.

Author's Note

I didn't want to believe he didn't love me. But he dosn't, and I can't change that.

Reviews

[Blue Shadow]

My heart is breaking...I'm sorry...and you're just so forgiving...I'm really sorry...