Why Did You Ever Trust Me?

My parents shouldnt trust me I just no it, im a terrible person and i hurt them I just need them to know im sincerely sorry for everything ive ever done

Mommy 

i know you'll never trust my word

i know you think its all absurd,

i want you to believe in me,

but you have reason not to see,

I've blinded you with painful nights,

I've broken you by misusing my rights

i know u cant look at me the same,

but i know ill also feel that way,

there's someone deep inside of me 

that want to tell you what i think,

i just cant manage words right now, 

so this is how ill show you that,

i really do love you nd im sorry,

Daddy, 

You see the world in a boys point of view,

you don't think I know, 

but i think i do,

i really don't think it worth your time, 

to waste on me,

i know my crime,

I really feel bad, 

my pains beyond words,

my heart is in ashes,

my red eyes, they burn, 

I want you to love me,

you say that you do,

but after all this how'd you say I love you,

i cant believe you managed,

Im mean im your little girl,

I feel like I've broken you heart and your world,

I know I did wrong, I know I hurt you,

but no matter what happens,

Ill always love you

I'm sincerely sorry for hurting you.

Author's Note

plz review but this is really personal please dont be harsh

Reviews

[Mithridate]

very great. :) i feel kinda the same

[Haifa]

You did a great job, sometimes I feel this way and I write kinda same things about it but I am not brave to show what I wrote to them, I feel shame because they did alot for me and I did less to them. Mum, once she told me " when you would be a mother one day you would know how I am feeling and how much I care about you and afraid of you ". Well done

[chaotic katie]

loved it savy its fantastic

[Tina Kline]

A very emotional write and good insight coming from you on what's going on with you. I'm hoping you and your parents work past this and become even closer together. It can be done if both parties want it.

[Mary]

wow, def one of your best :) i like the one to your mother the most, it flows better. other than that it was really heartfelt and i'm glad you made something from that bad situation you are in.

[Poetic Beauty]

This is a great way to write a poem and I like the unique way for splitting the letter shall we say to the mom and a separate to that dad. I am not sure what has cause all the pain and the hurt in this poem but it stands out loud and clear. I hope that the disappointment the narrator feels in this poem is quickly resolved. I will be honest the flow is really shaky. it only needs minor touches though. In time when the emotions have cooled take a look at again and I know right now you are thinking I can't do that and I know you are thinking ugg what is wrong with the flow. Trust me I have been there on emotional pieces but when this has time to settle a little look at the flow. It is mainly the part with that dad. Great unique way for writing this out and venting emotions.

[Zeitgeist Manifesto]

This was hard to read. I was deeply moved.

[GrownUpTime]

wow... heartfelt. sometimes thats all a poem needs. amazing