I miss you

I never knew,
how could I know?
You were always there,
it was so obvious.

But then you weren't,
how could you be?
You got ripped out of your life,
lost everything you had.

Now I know,
how couldn't I know?
You're not there anymore,
you won't ever be again.

How did I not see?
Ofcourse I loved you.
Everyone did.
But it was so obvious.

And when you got ripped away,
then I knew.
I knew how it really was.
But now it's too late.

I can't show you,
can't show how much I love you now.
You're always alone,
suffering on your own.

Ofcourse we visit,
but you're not the same.
This isn't life,
this should never have happend.

Not to you,
You've always been the best.
And now you're just this.
Not even a person anymore.

And the worst thing is,
You're suffering.
But everyone else is too.
Why won't someone stop your misery?

I'm so sorry.
You never deserved this.
I love you.
I miss you.

Nobody asked for this.
You deserved so much more.
I'm so sorry.
I love you grandpa.

Author's Note

This is something I've wanted to write about for a while now, but I couldn't find the words. Maybe it isn't clear what it's really about, but it is merely some thoughts.
Thank you.