"Let it go"

A new world

somewhere I've never been 

New experiences

some exciting

others scary

I'm finding out who I really am

God put me here for this

Sometimes I want to run home

but where is home?

I don't even know.

I use to think it is where your loved ones are

I know where my loved ones reside

but that is not my home

that is not where I belong

not now

not yet

Here, I feel free

I've never loved rules so much

It is what I needed

God called me here 

It may only be for a year

but this is my home

I still feel a wanting to go back

as if a string is connecting my heart to theirs

it tugs on my me daily

It whispers:

"come back to me"

I can't.

I pray that I could.

I could not stand the agony

always hearing the call

it draws the tears from my eyes

every night I dreamed of going back

being a part of them again

and feeling the tear 

I know I cant be there

One night I prayed

in hope that I'll eventually understand

why I am being pulled

"let it go."

I said "no."

"Let him go."

I said "I will."