Patience

It feel like a sore mucle,

one that isn't often used,

the ache is the same.

The ache is there because you want to know the person,

You want to hear his secrets,

To know his likes and dislikes,

know him so well you can tell if something is bugging him,

knows the feel of his hugs when he misses you,

Know how his hair feels between your fingers,

know how soft his lips feel against yours,

and knowing that you cant...

at least not right now.

Of all the things I've learned one thing stands out

It is in God's time 

not ours

If you try to force it in your time

all efforts will be for not.

No matter if it means to take a step back and leave him.

Do what is needed.

I'll be gone soon...

becaused it is needed.

I need what they offer

Information that will give me a new perspective.

Information that will help me renew my mind

With that I know I'll be taking a step closer to him 

by leaving than I ever would by staying.

I need to get closer to God

before I really can get close to him.

I have never felt this way before

and I'd be stupid to throw it all away.

It's not that I like him.

It's more that I feel we are attached somehow.

I value his opinions more than my bestfriend's

I want to protect him like a little brother

and comfort him like he is my son.

Sometimes I really just want to just be inpatience

and try to start all of it now...

I could spill my feelings on to him

or even push him against the wall and not talk at all...

But I know that would be unfair to both him and I.

I would lure him in for the catch

but then what?

What happends when I leave?

When you want a future with someone

you can't just think about now.

The hardest thing is to take a step back 

so you can take two steps forward.

If you really want a future you have to wait.

  

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[Zakari Schmidt]

That was like an orchestra in written word (or typed) great either way!