This Feeling

It's a blessing 

Yet, It feels like a curse.

It makes me smile 

And it makes me cry.

I hum at the mere thought of the idea

But break down if I think about it too much.

People say it's a trial but I know it's not.

I've been through this once before

He was nice enough though

talented, charming, enticing

That is where It went wrong.

He loved me when everyone else didn't

When I was alone and rejected.

He built me up;

He made me feel beautiful

When I was always told I was ugly.

He was there through all the pain.

Then he broke me.

It is a wonderful feeling

But I cry because I don't want to go through it again.

I just recovered.

I just healed.

If I give in, 

Are you going tear open my wounds?

This is my weakness.

I'm not as strong as people believe. 

I made a vow, 

Only the right guy is who I'd let in.

He would be a gentleman,

open doors for me,

protect me,

And someone to have riveting conversations with.

He would be a real man

Not one that says things to get something.

he would come up to me

If not to talk then to just be near me.

He would think innocently.

In my heart I will always be a child 

And that is how I want him to be.

He would be my best friend

Who I can be my dorky self with.

He would laugh at my corny jokes 

And he would know when I'm quiet, I need a hug.

I want him to take charge.

It is asking for a lot

I know.

I do that on purpose.

I need to make sure he won't hurt me;

I don't want to feel like I did before.

Never Again.

Reviews

[misha]

This is a beautiful and heartbreaking piece. I can relate to it and everyone deserves that one person who will makeup for all the rest. You did a great job here and it is a wonderful piece.