It's a shame

...Real life experiences...

What the hell do I do now.?
I've waited four years for u..
You probably still aren't aware of my feelings.
I tried to get over you,oh God, how I've tried.
I've done everything in my power to get u out of my thought,
Out of my dreams.
The more I try, the more my heart nd body longs for you.
The feeling of your hands untwined in mine,
What you hair would feel like as I play with it.
I wonder about The way you smile
in that half infuriating smile when you tease me.
I wondered how your skin feels next to mine,
How it would feel like to be seated upon your lap...
And the taste of your lips.
Damn, how could I been so naieve??
On the first of April, how could I pushed you away?
I felt that you were my other half.
Could it be possible you felt it too..?
I wanted you so bad my throat closed up
and my body proved unmovable at the site of you.
Even my mind was not in the present.
I couldn't understand how you could chose HER over me.?
At that thought, I became a little vain.
What she prettier than I.?
Men have often stopped in their tracks at the site of me...
But then only one man ever caught my eye,
Has ever made my mind wonder about unladylike like things.
I miss your smile,
The way you tease me,
And I even miss the way we talk,
You never talk to me...
Have I done something wrong.?
I want to talk to you..
I miss you.
It is a strange feeling to want you,
Who I do not know much about, so intensely.
Sadly, you are not within my reach.
You may not even know I have wanting for you,
But it does not matter.
Even if I have wanting for you,
we may never happen.
You do not speak to me.
I try to speak to you,
But you do not respond.
It's a sad thing,
One wanting the other but
The other has no wanting of the one.
It's a shame...
A terrible shame...