I echo the sentiments of the other reviewers here in that I hope the act of writing might have provided some help for you. I know that frequently that's how it works for me at least, but there is also so much that must simply be left to time. I especially liked the pacing of this and how you kept up the pattern of 'When I ___, I _____ed' until the end where you turned it around. Very poignant. It's a good write, but unfortunate you had to experience it.
I echo the sentiments of the other reviewers here in that I hope the act of writing might have provided some help for you. I know that frequently that's how it works for me at least, but there is also so much that must simply be left to time. I especially liked the pacing of this and how you kept up the pattern of 'When I ___, I _____ed' until the end where you turned it around. Very poignant. It's a good write, but unfortunate you had to experience it.