Existential Alchemy of Curated Romantic Obsession

The prose poem challenges common notions advising against romantic obsession. The reader explores an obstinate voice daring to map and swim in the ocean bed of romantic despair.

You are an atom in my existence

A single dot in the grand fabric of being

And yet, I cannot avert my gaze away

You are my Kierkegaardian leap of faith

A colossal damage to my integration

The abyss that shook my hard-earned composure 

Without leaving a lasting mark of resentment or resistance

And even when I look elsewhere

And derive an overflowing breeze of joy

My psyche tortures me back to the dot

For it knows I have collapsed into it

After the electric initial gaze

Redemption adamantly evades my capture when I am away from you

A dot around which the whole world revolves

And without which life is dull and tame

A sweet reminder of primordial passion and torture

That supersedes mechanical joy and modern stability

You left my body with stitches that I revere 

And slapped my soul with aches that I hold onto unashamed

I confess to possessing the key to overcoming you

But I choose to stay

Hanging on to the dot that tenderly sears my fragile self

For I seek a microgram of gem

That only through you can I obtain

I haunt as well

I torture madly and mercilessly 

But without malice

My intentions run deep

I want to celebrate the dim potential triumph

Rather than rot in a survivalist mode

And I will drag you with me

Not by force, but by an equanimous astute presence

That pierces the heart and mirrors your genuine longing 

For a life worth living instead of merely survived

Reviews

[Vol]

Mo'men Mo'een,
Now, THAT is a love poem! one of the things I like about this is, when I studied Philosophy, and Existentialism, I settled on Kierkegaard for the very element you described, and have spent the ensuing fifty years thinking about what it means to how I perceive the universe. Science wants to ignore anything spiritual, and visa/versa. In the reality/salvation I have worked out for the person inside my brainbox both are required and in most of my recent reading, the quantum physicists seem to be arriving at the idea of a Conscious Universe... would it not be nice if we could agree this would be a unifying factor/equation for all existence, all consciousness, all purpose, and meaning!
Love this poem!
Vol