Gate Keeper

A Poem by Molly D

gate keeper,
you are the snake coiled in the base of my spine
traveling thick like ink into every vessel
living in every thought like a storm that won't pass
projected onto my eyelids like a drive in movie.

my favorite song reminds me still of your room
the taste of your hookah slowly filling my mouth
as the smell of white peaches sank into my hair
until the track changes and i smell only of shampoo.

gate keeper,
i can smell you, taste you, i remember how you feel
it's you who left me unlocked and wide open
abandoning your post at the base of the gates
the very promise you made too early to keep.

i would've posted warning about my sudden flash floods
the very disaster that drowned your fickle libido
had i known they were so easily triggered by green eyes
or simple and recycled words used to unzip blue jeans.

gate keeper,
who knew you'd be the first unwitting young man
responsible for the unraveling of my control
and the disorder of my carefully sealed emotions
with which i had every intention of spending on you.

your perfect smile drew me in like a flame
it didn't take very long to convince myself of your depth
despite your contrived beliefs and empty values
your sincerity and humor was enough to keep me.

gate keeper,
how dare you toy with something so vulnerable
because you know i am not as tough as i look
with thorough investigation i'm sure you've noticed
because of you my hinges are rusted and refuse to shut.

i'll use as many men as i can find to use me up
though it's useless because i'll drown them too
with your name on my breath and your face in my mind
they're all stupid enough to think i don't belong to you.

i'll continue to flood until i run dry.