![]() Hot CoffeeA Poem by Molly GarnetI need
you to care about me I don’t
need you to drop everything for me Or make
a single sacrifice I just
need you to notice when I’m sad And
when you notice the smeared makeup, I need
you to ask what’s wrong Now
here’s the tricky part I’ll
always answer, nothing And you
have two options You can
pretend to believe me and continue talking about yourself And how
hard your classes are And how
angry you are because your coffee was too hot this morning Or You can
pull me aside, hold my hand, and genuinely ask me what’s wrong And
force me to tell you Because
there’s no way in hell I’ll say anything unless you can prove that you care And no
matter what you say Chances
are, I won’t be convinced And
I’ll still feel alone But
it’ll bring me one step closer to believing that I matter And I
might live through another night Because
of the vague possibility of your concern And if
I call you at three am, It’s
likely that I made a deal with the devil If I
call And no
one answers I’ll
kill myself tonight But you
won’t answer So I’ll
bang my head on the wall And
scratch my arms And cry And cry And
wonder how people can be so happy And why
I can never be that happy I wish
I could complain about difficult classes or hot coffee But my
pain runs so much deeper than that Nobody
dies because of hot coffee I want
to die Because
the world is just better if I’m not in it It’s
not selfish at all, Quite
the opposite Nobody
wants to hear what I have to say And I
can’t go through this alone So
rather than burden the world with my fucked up unstable mind I can
just disappear And
sardonically laugh at how many people are better off And how
many people don’t cry at my funeral
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