Freefall

I’ve always been told I trust too much

I’m naïve

And I’ll be lucky if I live to grow old

I’m a stupid girl

Reckless and vulnerable and completely genuine

I break easily and but heal just as fast

I leap from heartbreak to heartbreak

And never manage to learn my lesson

Not even the hard way

My father’s a hopeless worrier

And I don’t blame him

I can’t sit still

Never could

I crave adventure

That’s why I fall in love with strangers

And jump off cliffs

And go out alone in the middle of the night

I need that rush

Freefall is my freedom

It’s worth hitting the ground and shattering at a hundred miles an hour

Thank God I’m resilient

If it weren’t for my Irish blood

And a heart much stronger than my head

I’d be entirely broken

And maybe one day I will be

But I’m willing to keep jumping

At least for now

I fall every day because when your heart’s on your sleeve

It no longer belongs to you

It’s free for the taking

But I’m okay with that because one day

Someone else will be caught in the same freefall with me

At the same time

And we’ll break together

And heal together

And fall over and over and over together

But we’ll be so in love with each other

We won’t even notice the strangers

But who knows

Maybe I’m supposed to be alone

Falling and diving and breaking and loving everyone and everything in sight

Maybe I’m someone else’s lesson

An example of what not to be

Maybe my purpose is just to fall forever

And in a way

That’s a beautiful destiny.