first entry

i need to start keeping better notes

write down when you're sad

and think about sliding that gun

under your throat again.

what do you think makes you

long to pull that trigger?

i could tell you,

but i wanna see

what's rattling round that head of yours

before you spray paint it

all over the living room wall.

 

what are you thinking bout

when the world's crushing down?

when God's got his fist around you

and He's squeezing out

every last little bit of air.

Do you think it's better

to just get it over and done,

or would you rather hop on that plane

and find your way out to the desert

where only skulls and snakes

will know where you are?

 

tell me who you are

your passions, and desires,

give me some stuff to write it all down

so later when we play connect the dots

it'll be easier to call those men in white coats

and give you everything you've always wanted.