Without You

On my bed, staring up at emptiness. Pitch black, just the way I felt without her. Nothing could ever make me happy like the way she made me. The extraordinary blush on her lips... the deep dimples on her cheeks, the way her eyes twinkled when I looked into them....sigh...I'd do anything to have that back. Questions started popping into my head. Was what I did the right thing to do? Why'd I do it?

She was my entire world. And suddenly, the entire world fell, crumbling under my toes. I felt lost, cold, I was miserable. I felt alone, lonelier than I thought was possible. Sure I had my family, and friends. But, life just isn't the same without her. I felt an empty space in my heart. A sharp, quenching pain started piercing a hole in my heart, and with every passing minute, it seemed to grow, bigger and bigger. Everywhere I look, I could only see her face. Tears started pouring out of the bottom of my eye lids. I felt embarrassed to cry, but I didn't prevent myself from bawling my eyes out. I.....I wanted this pain, I deserved this. For harming my angel, for hurting her in ways I could never even comprehend, I had it coming.

She was my sunshine, enlightening every one of my days. Every time she held my hand, I swear, I could have flown, spreading my wings wide, with her holding on to me tight.

I looked up quivering, with my tear filled eyes, our picture. We looked so happy, so...bliss full. Where did it all go? I felt like dying, I no longer desired to live, nay, I couldn't live. Not without my darling smiling, by my side, her saying "Its gonna be ok honey..."

I felt my pain slowly deteriorate. In its place, a new feeling of hope arose. I clenched my fists tight, I knew what I had to do. I wanted my sweetheart back, no, I needed her back, so badly. I took a deep breath, filled with a slight tinge of joy, knowing what I was gonna do the next day. I closed my eyes. Dreams of her smile, her giggle, her hair fluttering in the breeze, I think I even smiled, while I was asleep! Is that even possible?

I woke up the next day, went through my regular morning routine. I looked at myself in the mirror, I was pale. I seemed to lose my color, losing myself, my very soul altogether with every passing moment. "Not for long", I said to myself.

On my way to school, I was thinking about what I was gonna say to her.

Would she even accept me again? Of course she would! Would she? Definitely! But after what I did?

Well....anythings worth doing if its for my darling.

I entered class, and saw her. Oh she was beautiful, just like I remembered. It was like the first time I met her. The same feeling of anxiety, the sudden adrenaline rush. 

She turned towards me, and stared at me for a while. In her eyes, I could see a tear drop, rolling down her soft, chubby cheeks. I made her cry. How could I ever forgive myself? More importantly, how would she ever forgive me?

I walked closer to where she sat, and she realized I was coming to her. She pretended to smile, trying to hide her tears from me. But I know an angel's smile when I see one, and that was not one of em.

I sat next to her. She turned away. I saw her body quivering. She was crying. I didn't know what to say. What could I say? I was lost for words. I felt a choking sensation in my throat.

I swallowed hard. I turned her towards me. Seeing her face, tears rolled down my eyes too. I held her chin, and came closer to her.....closer....closer... I could feel her breath on the bridge of my nose. She stared at me.

I smiled, and said, "Its gonna be ok honey..."

I leaned towards her, and kissed her ever so tenderly. She rested her head on my chest. My heart was beating. After what seemed like years of sorrow and misery, my heart was beating again.

I cuddled her in my arms, she was mine. And its always gonna be that way. Ill make sure it does....

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[Black]

here and there a few grammer mistakes
but further nicely done