dying

i wasn't born to live forever, im dying out just like the nocturnal glitter that flickers in and out in the sky

i deeply wish i was somewhere far away with the coy fish and lilypads, but i spend my days on the cement with cigarette smoke and tears

im your bad luck charm baby eat me up and wish me away like you always do, they always do

i can read your energy like a receipt, never looking deeply but i always know what it contains with the possibility of a fault

when you fall into the dirt kiss the end of all of the rainbows and stars i wished on for me, tell them i did everything i could to have a pure heart in a world that felt like ongoing nebulous delusions

when all i am is bones in the dirt, i hope that i feel safe beneath the hell above me

i'll know i died loving you even if you forgot me and my heart decades beforehand

i hope i see familiar faces

i hope nothing hurts where im at

and i hope i fall away slowly while the stars are the only filling my vision