Drunk By Myself

It's an old collaboration with a poet from Boxden.com. We called ourselves 'Proverbial Authors'

 

Drunk By Myself

I've filled and emptied so many bottles;
it's a testament to my survival
Ripped from a hard knock life's bible
I let them swallow the tears I try to shed
but they always overflow
I've drowned in misery so many times
how I'm alive I still don't know
With every tear I shed, a new chapter is born
You take a look inside of a beating heart
that's tearing apart
And with each drop, a new spot becomes torn
Being in love with someone who isn't in love with you
makes the colors in your world turn black and white
And you're trying to live in a different hue
but the color scheme still doesn't seem right
The pain subsides
but you are out still trying to find a cure
Dead inside
it's like I'm blind because I live a life that's so obscure
They say in time that all wounds heal;
that's little help
I'm in so much pain still
Hence, the many bottles on my windowsill
I quench my thirst with liquid that's smoky brown
or burning clear
When no one's around I exchange the liquid with all
my tears
I don't care if my blood is diluted, polluted from the
many sips i take
There are many nights I lie awake
and think about how I got into this mind state
But then I get numb again from the whiskey, the vodka,
the rum and the gin
It's a vicious cycle and I don't think it will ever end
A sick game I can't win
Maybe this time I won't be able to cheat death
I have so many tears left
The pain subsiding when I give up my last breath...

Reviews

[Travis Lawrence]

Another powerful piece.

"Being in love with someone who isn't in love with you
makes the colors in your world turn black and white
And you're trying to live in a different hue
but the color scheme still doesn't seem right"

So well put!

[Bubo]

A very sad but powerful write on how destructive love can be and what it makes you do
Drowning sorrows to forget , or hope you will be transported else where.....and the pain of loving someone
who does not return that love, living with knowledge.

Being in love with someone who isn't in love with you
makes the colors in your world turn black and white
And you're trying to live in a different hue
but the color scheme still doesn't seem right
The pain subsides
but you are out still trying to find a cure

The only cure is time and acceptance that some things are not meant to be.