New Dream...Old Dream

So "Dear John" comes out and I debate whether to go watch it.  It looks like a beautiful love story and the book is well written. 
But to watch something so close to home proves a harder task.  I have remembered those days quite often now and to be honest, I have never forgotten the bliss or the hurt because it was all worth it in the end.  Although life never turns out as planned or at least not at the time we proposed; who is to say that it's over for good?  I am the ultimate hopeful without becoming my own enemy in just waiting and waiting in vain for long.  I have learned to set aside the past and concentrate on what the future holds while living presently.  I haven't held on to the past for a very long time, but still hope for the very best for me.  Who's to say that it wasn't the past I selfishly let go of once?  It is possible that it was never the right time and what's meant to be will be no matter what.  Life will brings us together if it is ultimately meant to be.  If not, then goodbye was proclaimed long ago and that's how it will remain.
I want a place to run to, to call my own.
I want to rest in that embrace forever.
Ridding myself of toxicity has proven to be the best idea yet.
As I open my heart again and breathe in a new start,
I can feel this future love drawing near.
I want to know more
I want to know all of you
I want to feel like I'm yours now and forever!
So here is my answer:
I want this and I want it fully!