Toxic "Friend"

Sometimes when people least deserve your love
is when they need it the most...
But love is a hard thing to give when trust is broken,
unrequited love even harder.
Every promise broken, lies are spoken like a screenplay you practice daily in order to believe yourself and defend your place.
My mind broke down when I realized
the lies had caught up with you
and I was face to face with the truth.
Once a liar, always a liar!
Toxicity you bring to my life as a friend,
or a so-called friend who has no clue how to be true.
Toxic waste, worthless, an empty void:
these words as harsh as they sound
are even tougher to take as truth.
But the truth never stays hidden for long.
You cannot cover the sun with the palm of your hand.
I am only too blind to trust, time and time again,
that which isn't, which never was,
which never will be!
A nightmare disguised as fantasy,
or was it the nightmare to realize the "better" side of you was pure fantasy and nothing more?
A wolf disguised in sheep wool can stay hidden for so long
before the fangs come out.
A dog is a dog no matter how much of a facade he creates.
You can bring out the worst out of me
but never the best.
It has been so long since I have seen my best!
Three years and counting to be exact,
thus proving the theory that you have been toxic to my life.
I will rid myself of you in the worst way!
The only way you seem to understand.
How do you deal with a child if not stooping to his level?
I could never go quite that low to yours,
but I can attempt for a while to create the illusion
 that I am not hurt, that I am cold,
that I am ruthless so as to see you give up and go. 
It only satisfies me to know I will never have to deal
with this again.
It saddens me for all the time wasted,
all my time wasted!
I have rid myself of all toxicity in the past year,
you were just the final touch for this new year.
Now I can find myself again.
Now I can be me again, and see the best part of me once more.
I needed to let go of this insanity.
I needed to let go of you
and what you've helped me become.
Time to get my self back and let go of this monstrosity
I barely recognize but can trace back to when we began.
I am going back to the beginning and starting anew,
alone while awaiting the return of my better half,
or the one that will take that place for all time.

These words are a mere release of anger, disappointment, and rage against so-called friendship and betrayal.
Sorry for the harshness, but no apologies for the sentiment!
Sincerely,
M.