The Ex-Factor

just writing

Do you recall all the times I wish it wouldn't end?
Yet it all remains the same
when every moment I've spent
seeing more than was there and taking all the blame.
I wish to forget and forgive
for all this damage you chose to give
carried me through string by string
to an abyss of misery you named for me.
I'm the fly on your wall that you can never catch
I'll be your last misery you've let slip by.
I choose to loathe you by loving you still
a taste of your own insanity to change things up.
You portray that cynic face to the world
as if you've never done wrong, yes, always the victim to most.
Oh, that poor boy, I can fix him, I can give him what he lacks!
Don't be fooled by that devilish laughter and sinister smirk
The devil incarnate had come to claim his prey.
Oh man, does that trick work as we all play fools
to the daggers of his weak, pathetic esteem
where only lame attempts to feel better through others' demise, leaves him unsatisfied and ready to hunt!
And the hunt continues, never to be done
For lack of love and nourishment lie in that heart,
as he treats his body, he'll do you worse
So beware of this hideous snake!
I have learned my lesson well
to never allow hatred to keep me from moving on.
Learned to let go and see him as he truly is.
a monstrous child, a bad track record, a country song left on repeat: "so blame it on your lying, cheating, cold, dead-beating, two-timing, double dealing, mean, mistreating, loving heart!"
luv, m.