Desperately pounding in my chest
My heart wishing to break free
My mind, never a moments rest
uncertain of which direction to flee.
Stumbling, though carefully I tread,
Desperate, I try to leave the past behind,
free my mind from a self-created web.
Yet, I hesitate, in fear of what I might find.
Festering fear take hold in heart and vein
Anger, frustration poisoning my thought
Yearning for release of unrelenting pain;
Release from every stitch my mind has wrought
The prison I have long wished to escape
Now with its doors open I am free to leave
my life is my own to selfishly reshape
My heart conflicted, scared to believe.
Mai L. Nissen, 2012