Fractured Mind

A reflection of a time marked by heavy depression, a reminder of a place I never want to go back to - to maintain a healthy fear of this, in order for me to be more aware of myself.

Delicately locked away;

Strangers, friends held at bay;

Safely guarded, this secret treasure

feels protection, though no pleasure.

Fearfully and cautiously locked a way;

Left to its misery, slowly to decay.

No light, no dream dare enter

the lifeless, hardened centre

of my heart, that only knows:

Of feeling that in other people grows.

Infectious decease threatens to irrupt;

hearts faulty design set to self-destruct;

Only maddened contemplation

Exists within this cell of isolation;

Only maddening silence to ignore,

endless nothingness to explore;

In this deceased and fractured mind

cognition and sanity are left behind;

Experience no rage, sadness or fret

indifferently, faced with quiet death

 

Mai L. Nissen, 2013

Author's Note

Art by Ditte Løfgren
http://ditteloefgren.com

I welcome any constructive criticism and suggestions

Reviews

[J. K. Beach]

Mai, It is quite a brave thing to expose ourselves as writers; we long to, but it is never easy. I do know where you are coming from... and I applaud your ability to put it into words. I will look at more of your work, but I wanted to start with your first post... it is often telling. Excellent start!

[Mai L Nissen]

Thank you for taking the time to read it! Though actually, some of the others are of an older date... and I am not very constant in style... I enjoyed reading your poems and I am sure to read more :)

[Coyote Poetry]

Powerful words and thoughts.
"Experience no rage, sadness or fret
indifferently, faced with quiet death"
The poem told a deep and detailed journey. Some journey can end in disappointment. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry dear Poet.
Coyote

[Mai L Nissen]

Thank you for taking the time to read it and for your kind review :)

[Coyote Poetry]

My pleasure and you are welcome.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

the worst thing we can feel is indifference...after the anger, the hurt, the depression comes the concession to apathy...and live cannot be lived that way.

this poem plunges those depths of what is so real in our minds and hearts at times. I have been here...i know this poem well.

[Mai L Nissen]

Thank you for taking the time to read and sharing your thoughts!
I am sorry about your personal experience that makes the feelings in the poem (or lack thereof) known to you. However, I am glad that the poem comes across as it was intended. Your sharing of thoughts are much appreciated :)

[Eliza K.]

This is extremely powerful and well written. It really talks well about what depression feels like. I'm amazed at how well you captured such emotions and it almost brought me to tears because I was thinking about my own struggles. Well done. It completely captures a lot of the emotions and thoughts I went through.

[Mai L Nissen]

Thank you for taking the time to read and comment. I am sorry to hear that you too have struggled with depression. But I hope that you can find comfort in knowing that you are not alone - and that you are not just weird or something :)

[Jamestown]

The inner war within the mind, I applaud you for identifying and being
able to then pen it! Really well written and executed, thanks for sharing and b-blessed!

[Mai L Nissen]

Thank you for taking the time to read and comment! :)

[nazia]

good one. mind really becomes numb sometimes and its a true description of indifference

[Mai L Nissen]

Thank you, your comment is appreciated! :)