Goodbye My Sweet Love

Before I met you, I already knew what love was. I had already felt all there was to feel. Or so I thought. I met you and everything changed. You were the

first friend I ever made in Florida. That in itself is pretty special to me. I'll never forget the day I met you. December 14th, 2014. You approached me and

introduced yourself. We talked for a little bit. You had me put my number into your phone. I had to leave and you said "wait" and gave me a hug. Right then

and there I knew you weren't just some guy. And I was right. I fell in love with you. I've seen you when you're on top of the world and I've seen you at your

lowest point, but I still look at you the same. Good or bad, I still feel the same way about you. You've had such an impact on my life. Everything I do, I keep

you in mind. You're in my every thought. I think about you from the time I wake up until I fall asleep at night. I'm not trying to be cute or corny. I literally do

Whenever I see you, my heart beats out of my chest. I get so nervous. I don't just get butterflies in my stomach; I get them in my whole body. I've grown to

love you more than I love myself. Your feelings matter more. I put you first. But now, the time has come where I have to let go. I can't keep pretending like

things are okay when they're not. The feelings aren't mutual. You say you love me more than I love you, but that's not true. Do I think you love me? Yes, but

as a person. Not in a romantic way. I've held on for so long and I just can't do this anymore. Love is worth fighting for, but I can't fight alone.

I think I tried for so long because I kept telling myself things would change, but they never will, and I realize that now. You don't want them to. I guess I

was just hoping for the best. But hope can't help anymore. No more wishful thinking. I've spent so many nights laying in bed crying because I couldn't understand

why you didn't want to be with me. I questioned myself. What did I do wrong? What do I need to change about myself? The answer is nothing, because the 

reality is, no matter what I say or do, you'll never want the same things as me. You'll never want to be serious with me. I get that now. I knew it before, but

I suppose I just didn't want to swallow the truth. But now I have and it f*****g hurts. Facing the truth was hard, but letting go of you is harder. Having to

throw away all the memories; all the times you made me laugh, cuddled with me, hugged me, everything. How am I supposed to forget someone who gave me so

much to remember? I guess I have to figure it out. You say let's just be friends, but how can I be friends with someone I love so much it hurts? There is no way.

It's too late for that. It's gone too far. I can't be friends with you. It's not that simple anymore. The feelings are too strong.Your hugs have always been my 

favorite. Whenever you wrap your arms around me, I feel like nothing bad can ever happen to me. But it's those arms that are hurting me. Not physically, but 

emotionally. You've made me believe I mean something to you, but I don't. I don't mean anything to you. I mean, let's be honest here. One of us has to be. Loving 

you is sort of like I'm putting together a puzzle, except at the end, I find out there's a piece missing. I keep looking for it. I try so hard, but it can't be found. 

And I'm tired of searching. I'm just so damn tired. Tired of crying.Tired of wondering why. Tired of thinking about you all the time. I've spent so much time on 

you and where did it get me? No where. What do I get? Nothing.You have absolutely no respect for me. It's sad that I had to have it pointed out to me. I 

can't believe I was too blind to see it. I've done everything I can for you and you don't even have the decency to show me a little bit of respect. I only mean 

something to you when it's convenient for you. On your terms. I've been there for you a lot, but when I need someone, you're no where to be found. Where are you 

when I'm laying in bed crying myself to sleep? Where are you when I'm having a s****y day and need someone to talk to? Or even when I just want to talk? 

You're never around unless it's you who needs me. I've reached my breaking point. You've put me through hell, but I always forgave you. I always said it was 

okay, even though it wasn't. I think that's why you keep doing what you do. You know I'll forgive you, so why would it matter if you hurt my feelings?  I can't 

forgive you anymore. It's too late to fix this. You broke my heart. Now it's up to me to fix it. I gotta do it on my own. I have to learn to love myself and I 

can't ever do that if I keep playing these games with you. It's sad to think that I have to let go of someone that I thought was my everything, my number one, 

my hero. Your love is toxic. I don't want to hurt you, but I didn't mean anything to you, so why would this? This is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do 

though. I never thought I'd give up on you. This cuts deeper than a knife. Of course I cried while writing this. It's killing me on the inside, but I'll put on a 

smile when I see you, because that's what I've always done. The only difference is, after a while, the smile will be real. I won't have to pretend anymore. 

I won't have to worry about getting hurt anymore. I was a fool for too long and in the end, I got burned. Your love is toxic and I'm sick of swallowing poison. 

I will always love you, but they say if you love someone, let them go. Goodbye my sweet love. I wish you nothing but the best.  

  

Reviews

[Inject Positivity]

Hats off to you!!! I love your honesty and the passion you have shown towards your beloved....The first part was just too sweet and lovely to feel....The second part was more of your honesty and how brave you are.....There is a lovely thought of unconditional love which makes it more beautiful....I loved the simplicity throughout story which makes it more catchy to the reader's eyes.....You did a brilliant job by describing your feelings.... Clap! Clap! Clap! Clap!...Full ratings dear frnd.....

[Miranda Lynn]

Thank you so much!!

[Pursue Peace Blog]

I forgot to mention that I also think your title is great! Sometimes the title is everything. It's what lures your readers. It definitely caught my eye.

[Miranda Lynn]

Thank you so much for your kind words!

[Pursue Peace Blog]

Unrequited love. A feeling many of us are all too familiar with. I love your honesty. Many are not willing to write such raw emotions down. Props!