Love Hurts

They say you should never run back to what's hurting you, but I've never been smart when it comes to love, so I always go back. That's why I partly blame myself. I've been asking why you keep hurting, but really, I should be asking why I keep letting you. I guess I'm just an idiot with her hopes up to high, but my feelings are not toys to be played with. I may act like I don't care sometimes, but on the inside, I'm a sensitive person. I'm only human. I feel pain just like you do. When you say to me the things you did, it made me feel so good. I felt like I was on Cloud 9. Like I had died and went to Heaven. But I knew it was only a fantasy, because that's all it ever turns out to be. You should really learn to taste your own words before you spit them out. Every time this happens, I tell myself it's the last time I fall into it, but I'm a fool and go for it every time. Truth is, I think part of me is still waiting for you and always will be. Every time this happens, it feels like a knife is being stabbed right into my heart. You could never understand how I feel. You think you get it, but you clearly don't. I can't be a pawn of yours. I can't be a puppet. I can't be used. I can't take it anymore. Don't you think I've been through enough already? When is it my turn not to receive pain? When do the bad times stop? I guess you'll never understand how I feel about you. I guess it doesn't really matter that I would give up literally everything for you. I would repair your broken heart. I would take care of you. I would remind you every day how much I love you. I would treat you like royalty. I would give my last breath for you. Anything and everything. All for you. But clearly, that will never be enough. And I have to accept that. Ya know..all this pain cuts deep..but I guess not deep enough. Goodbye my sweet love. Losing you cuts deep.