Something

The body is washed over by something of a feeling unexplainable. You feel as if you are watching your own movie as life slows and replays the days, the months, the years. The certain uncomfortable feeling you get as it slows is something unimaginable, the knowledge that there is a certain pattern, a certain chase of something that you can never get as your life is put on rewind. Yet as you realize how pathetic everything is, how everything is just buzz words and a dream you chase but can never get as isolation and sadness drives you mad. You realize reality is pitiful and what is there to live for in this wretched life everything is pointless. As you realize that you are a blimp on an interstellar radar and if you ascended no one would know, no one would care. So the question is will you ascend or will you stay and pray for the dice to roll in your favor in this meek existence.