Dear U 23

Dear U
How cold and empty everything seem. I can hardly watch the news without feeling heartbroken. Maybe I'm oversensitive. I guess so. Ignorance is trully bliss. I really feel like things were better ten years ago. I guess they weren't. I just didn't know about it. Sometimes I just want to close my eyes and cover my ears to just not know. To walk out the door and find a spot. A spot where one can just sit down and breathe. But it just becomes harder and harder to want anything. To put my energy and care about anything. My energy and brain is numbing and my heart just seem to feel more pain. As it is so empty that it leaves all the room for the throbbing pain. It is like I do nothing but complain. I'm hopeless. I find myself wondering what you are doing. Wishing there was a way for me to ask you directly. Of all the stupid things I wish I knew the colour of your eyes.
Sweet dreams Dear U..