Dear U 18

Dear U.
I haven't written in a while. But only because it is so hard. I keep telling myself that I will be happy as long as you are happy. But I guess I was lying. How could I ever be happy if I'm not with you? My whole being longs to be next to you and wishes that the next corner I pass will have you there. You can't wait for things to happen but have to do the work yourself. Yes, that is true. But what could I ever do to meet you? Do you even exist? I hope you do. My heart can't accept any other way of thinking. If there would be no you, then there would be no me. Not like that at least. I would keep existing. But not trully living. Breathing. Smiling. Laughing from my heart, because it would be cold and shivered. No more a feeling being but a empty shell. But then again. How does one explain how you feel without sounding melodramatic? How could one put ones feelings down in print? How do you describe a feeling? I wish so badly I had you here to ask. Maybe you wouldn't know neither but that is alright anyway. I just need to hear your voice that lets me know that everything is alright. That calls me from the deapth of my soul and brings me home..
Sweet dreams Dear U...