Dear U 14

Dear U.
I guess I am movie damaged when it comes to relationships. I just look at the people around me and think. I want to think "Just knew it. Knew it the first time I touched her" or " he will hear my call from a mile away, and hum my favorite tune." thinking back at it, it does sound crazy. Have abyone ever felt like in sleepless in seattle that the first touch told them anything. I understand butterflies and happyness. But knew that was the one they would spend their lives with? It just sound so unrealistic. But still I wish, dream, hope for something my head have told me dosn't exist. I torment myself with dreams I don't even belive in. Is it stupid to wish for something like that? To wish for the one. The only one that can make you smile when your heart is in pieces. The only one that can change your life with a single word. Maybe my mind never aged from when I was thirteen. Maybe I constantly will be lost in my own little world dreaming of you. But since the alternative is to be without you I rather take the pain. I long for you with all my heart.
Sweet dreams Dear U..