Dear U 9

Dear U.
I have heard it said that we all get born and die alone, and everything in-between is just static. I don't really know what to think about that. In a way it is right, but at the same time it is completely wrong as well. Even if you have no friends or family there is always someone who get affected by someone dying. As to the birth... Well I have never heard of anyone managing to do that alone. There is after all always the mother, usually hospital personal or someone assisting the mother. I know I just took the idea literal. But then again. If it were true, that we all are alone at som level. Then it just seems to hard to handle. I guess since humans are pack animals we get distraught if we are alone too long. But it is not that neither. One can be in a room full of people and still feel like the loneliest person alive. I know, I have felt it. That hollow dark empty throbbing loneliness. Have you? Have you ever felt so lonely that you thought it wouldn't matter if you were alive or dead? It hurts. It hurts so bad. And it takes so long for the feeling to calm down. Yes calm down, but never dissappear. Constantly lingering in the back of the mind. Constantly reminding you that you easely can be replaced. Would it be diffrent with you? Could your whispers chase the feeling away? I hope so. Or at least make one forget that it is there. If only for a while. Gosh, this letter really became depressing. I guess I should try to focus on something diffrent. Our minds are after all ours. Which means that we are the ones in control of them. No one can feel better unless they choose to do so. But sometimes it is so hard on your own. I miss you so bad.
Constantly in my mind.
Sweet dreams Dear U.