The Door

All I can say is that this is a song I wrote when I felt and certainly was destroyed by someone most important to me years ago

Somewhere in time we used to be .
The ones the world admired .
We would blend together prolifically .
I was cold and you were fire .
So many thoughts you wished I'd share .
I just could not find the words .
But so many things I said lead to your assumptive jumps .
And saddly went unheard .
I guess that's how bliss dwindled down .
To another fantasy .
I told one lie to the many you told .
While laying too close to me .
   A door that slowly closes , silently should never close .
   You never had to prove a thing , I gave you all I had of me  .
   I don't want to see tomorrow , another day of beg and borrow .
   So here I stand a broken man with nothing left to see .
I know that I was never easy .
But I gave my all for you .
And in the ending all I find .
Are my regrets surrounding you .
I tried to free you and cut the lines .
But it was all so hard to do .
Never befor in my life .
Have I loved ss strong and pure .
But maybe now you've found someone .
Who's the opposite of me .
With whom you feel you could build a home .
And be all you want him to be .
   A door that slowly closes , silently should never close .
   I only had a part of you as you demanded all of me .
   I held on for our tomorrows , I even begged and borrowed .
   Now here I stand a broken man with nothing I can beleive .
I remember everytime .
You took and held me in .
And just when we would start doing well .
I would have to prove myself again .
What's so very wrong with me .
To be so in love with you ?
And to still not matter to you in the end .
Where you could not love me too .
Maybe fate had other plans or .
We were robbed of our destiny .
I still miss you and every touch .
When it seemed like you were in love wth me .
   A door that saddly closes , silently must finally close .
   Does it matter now how good our lives in that love could have been ?
   I dread waking to tomorows , just more of the beg and borrow .
   And here I stand a broken man with nothing left to dream .

And I still remember tasting your sweat .
As you trembled pressed to me ....