A prayer too late

These are just words

I've traded for a bottle

of wine

a sigh in the darkness

I don't remember you

I knew you once

so long ago

under a different moon

I cried out as 

I knelt there in the

flickering light

 

but now

it's faded into

a mist of sparkling, dancing

shiny things

and you are just

stories in a book

I have forgotten

clinging to

 

how cheap the price of my soul

that I would be left

on the side of a dusty road

with a coffee can

and a Playboy magazine

how bitterly I wept

for the dirt

and the chance that I

wouldn't be one

of the forgotten

still you left me

with all my tears

in a puddle of hope

reflecting empty promises

my, Job in ash, moment

friends in a circle of blame

and you

with no answer

I wasn't going to be one of the fools

who said mean things about

a forgetful deity

but here I am

have you considered my friend?

blameless before you

fathering your children

and yet she withers

...and I

am the one

who is lost?

 

 

Reviews

[Petmeds]

This is so damn enlightened.

"my, Job in ash, moment
friends in a circle of blame
and you
with no answer"

Tragic and heartbreaking...

[Kristina Moulaison]

Thanks Honey!

[Chris]

Coins have soooo many sides to look back at us...

[Kristina Moulaison]

Interesting comment Chris...I suppose they do.

[Chris]

At first I thought of a mistress speaking and then I considered a spouse/partner...then both

[Kristina Moulaison]

That could work. I wrote it as a rant at god.

[Chris]

yes, but WHO was ranting?

[Kristina Moulaison]

Oh I see what you mean, sorry. All of what you said could work.

[Kristina Moulaison]

How did you like that evasive action? :)

[Chris]

You didn't evade... you just saw a different path you hadn't noticed

[Kristina Moulaison]

The last stanza is the only one about the other character. I was thinking about my best friend who has breast cancer. She is a devout Christian and I told her I would pray for her though I don't believe. This is what came out, me manufacturing a god to speak to. I don't think this is what she had in mind with me praying, putting god on trial. LOL! Oh well.

[Chris]

I saw the change - both of tone and voice. First you assume what she had/has in mind - maybe she hoped you would a Faith beyond your person - some are like that too, even while scared to cease they can be ...selfless.

We believe what our terribly scared, and threatened by pain and possible extinction, mind finds to believe or hope is real ...and at that point who is to say it isn't?

Seems we are imperfect even as we raise pointing fingers...