Memory

A Story by Misty

But you're only a piece of my memory that keeps disappearing....

Grey. I think that's really all I see. It's almost as if color doesn't exist, like I'm questioning what color is. I've yet to fathom the reason behind such a tedious past. It seems though you've become quite the person you always said you'd never be. A monster. One out to just cause destruction and harm to everything in its path. My head now pulses at the thought of you. A rather..darker intention lies within, and it's a scary, grueling thought to comprehend.

"I think it's your warming smile that continuously brings joy to my life, and that's only one thing I love about you."

I remember repeating that line like a scratched CD playing the same part. over and over again. Now it's frozen. The CD is broken, and it's causing me to not see straight. Grey. The joy, the happiness, it has all disappeared and it rips apart at me consecutively everyday. How is everything okay? You just left me. There was no reasoning, there was no goodbye. You just disappeared, and God I hate you for that. I gave you five years, and I think that's what triggers me most. Years together. Not months, days, or weeks, it's been years. We watched each other graduate, and yet you did this to me. How is this okay? It has been seven months since I last heard your voice. Felt that tender touch you possessed. Everyone keeps telling me to just get over it, but do they really understand? The unbearable truth that's lingering inside. I just lie about it.

Lying. We're taught it's a horrible thing, that if you do it you should be scolded for it. Honesty. We're taught it's a wonderful thing, that if you're honest everything will be okay. In all reality, it's only the opposite. I've realized the truth is usually the wrong thing. People get hurt and upset by it everyday. Yet, if they find out the lie they also get hurt and upset, basically the same situation. Only, how often do they find out the lie? I've never been one to think that lying was okay, but after being with you I realized it's best to lie, because pain can be secluded and no one will know. Why didn't you tell me the truth? I told you everything, but I guess it's seldom for me to do such a thing to anyone. I guess it was all just a large blur, and I'm still not over the fact of everything.

I'm assuming you're okay. Hopefully everything is in color for you, and you're smiling bright. I miss that smile.. How much longer do we have? I'm questioning my expectancy, because after witnessing everything I can't take anything for granted anymore. You truly saved me, and brought things into my life that no one has ever brought, nor could they. I can't thank you enough for everything. You're a gorgeous soul, and I want you to shine bright. I know you didn't mean to, you were just trying to be there for them. You were such a gorgeous girl, and had so much more potential. Why did you have to be so stupid? Why did you get involved? You weren't sick.. They took you from me. You took too much..why would you take so many..? Did you want to leave me with this burden? I don't know how to feel, I feel numb now.

I'm leaving this letter on your grave, because you took several too many, and you left me to carry on a story alone. You took away my other half, my best friend, my family, my future..

I had a ring for you all those months ago.. Now I leave it to rest with you in all eternity..