Will I Smile

if i ever we cross paths again
will i smile and say hello
just ask how you have been
or will i not be able to stop myself
and i will look at you with sadness and hurt
unable to get out the niceties at all
or will i suddenly be filled with anger and pain
that i have worked to keep in tight
will you smile and be sincere in your smalltalk
or pretend that you do not know me at all
will we be flooded with memories
flooded with shame and regret
flooded with emotion and some ounce of...what
will that day ever come or am i wasting my time
even worrying over it at all