It Just Does

i am sitting here
not sure at all of who i am
the person i want to be
the person that others see
the person that i am afraid i have been for so long
how do you tell
how do you know what is real and not
when every day is filled with confusion
frustration, fantasy maybe
i am just not sure
but i do know that this is all too much to bear
i am beginning to break
into pieces?
it seems so
i'm a little bit worried
a little bit relieved
nothing makes sense anymore
but i guess that is how it all falls apart
and how it all comes together again
it just does.