Footprints in the mindA Story by LarisaJust some things I've been thinking about as the end of high school approaches. Basically my feelings and my fears put into words and a setting.The air smelt of smoke and salt. The sand felt cold and wet
under her bare feet. She could hear the laughter and the cracking sound of
burning logs behind her but it felt far away. The sound of the crashing waves
felt realer somehow, but maybe it was just because she could feel the spray on
her cheeks and not the warmth of the flames. She tightened her quilt around her
arms. Someone must have picked up her guitar. Each note seemed to echo on for
longer than usual. She choked up recognizing what had been her favorite song
three years ago. She didn’t move to wipe the tears that ran down her cheeks.
They were so cold she couldn’t feel the paths every tear created anyway. All of them were singing now, trying desperately to recall
the lyrics that were buried under three years’ worth of other songs and other
memories. Almost separate lives, she thought. Like they were so different from
the people they were back then that the memories felt more like stories than
personal experiences. The tears stopped falling and the ocean breeze was drying
them one strong gust of wind at a time. She dug her toes into the sand. She had
been standing there long enough to start sinking into feet-shaped holes. Too
bad they would be gone the moment she stepped away from that particular patch
of sand. It’s all a metaphor, she thought; the beach bonfire, the old
songs, the momentary footprints, the tears, the waves facing her and slowly
edging closer. The water was time, and more specifically September. It had been
lurking around right in front of her for a while now; just never quite close
enough to get her wet. But it was the last week of summer break and soon the
ocean would be miles away from her but she would be facing another sea of
unknown: college. She would hear new songs, make new memories, memorize new
lyrics to sing accompanied by her guitar late into the night. And nights like these
would be stories told by a stranger. But she wanted to remember. She couldn’t bear to forget. To
not recall the way the sand was soft and humid, even in the summer. Or the way
it felt when they all sang together; raw voices colliding with soft ones, the
light strums of a guitar providing the song’s only solace. Even this " the
tears and the cold " she wanted to be able to feel forever. Because that was the
big problem, not remembering faces or places. It all came down to what she was
feeling, what she had felt. She could not remember how it had felt to walk into
her high school for the first time, or if her heart had skipped a beat or not
when Roger Pawn had asked her to her first homecoming; which was scary, because
what she did remember was that fourteen year old her had talked about it for
months. And now, that girl who had danced the night away and had her first real
kiss was like a character in your favorite book: so close yet so far, living
things that might have happened to you, but living in another universe all the
same. And suddenly she couldn’t take it anymore. Sitting there,
crying, trying desperately to remember would not solve anything. To remember,
she needed to live. She needed to feel things worth remembering and impossible
to forget. And then maybe she wouldn’t need tangible proof of what she had felt
to stay in the sand. She let the quilt slide to the ground just as the first
wave reached her feet. Then she ran. She ran away from the fire and the old
song, away from the heat and the smoke, into the dark, deep, cold ocean. And it
felt wonderful. © 2016 LarisaAuthor's Note
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1 Review Added on February 1, 2015 Last Updated on June 9, 2016 Tags: teen, coming of age, summer, college, beach AuthorLarisaBelgiumAboutI read, I write, I tumble (both in a gym and on the internet). That's about it. more..Writing
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