moments in passing

a thousand moments in passing

maybe a million. 

i lost count.

i don't follow those things anymore.

counting the moments, counting the seconds. 

counting the days, ever since we last saw each other. 

let alone talk in one way or another. 

i've lost count. 

my heart has been crumbling and melting on its own

at the same time. 

but all the same

disappearing. 

the images of you still remain, regardless of the state of my heart. 

scathed, stabbed, or scratched. 

it doesn't matter. 

you're still here. 

you're still on my mind, 

you're still a part of me. 

i feel pathetic, 

not minding whether i'm still a part of you,

you're still important to me. 

regardless.

i'd like to have been by your side. 

regardless. 

but what seems to have been

a fire and water that i had caused

is what had created a barrier between you and me. 

a barrier between you and me. 

Reviews

[Green]

I do have the habit of counting things. In fact, I have often wondered if I was the only one. It’s always felt like a little bit of a compulsion to count minutes and hours and days like that until it’s eventually too much to matter anymore. I understand that feeling all too well.
The people who’ve been in our life and mattered never truly leave us. That’s both a blessing and a curse depending on where you are in that journey. It will hurt, and I wish I could tell you it wouldn’t. One day though you might just look back and see that something came out of it.
In the meantime, though, this was quite a relatable read. The way you described things was quite good. I don’t know if the repeated line at the end was intentional or not (it works that way so I wasn’t sure). I was fully with you until the end, I got a little confused at that last bit but that could just be that my experiences are different than your own and it was in reference to something specific.

[Sora Kim]

Thank you for the lovely comment. It's definitely something to think about; whether something comes out of people staying with us on the inside. So, I'd like to thank you for the insight. I'm glad I could write something that someone would relate to, and yes, the repeated line was intentional (just for emphasis, really). I hope you have a good rest of your day ^^

[Sora Kim]

I apologize, a typo: could, not would XD