Confused Today

A Day In the Life Of...........

Today I awoke with this empty feeling not sure why. I guess it's realization that maybe I or we don't have the control we think or assume we have over our lives, that maybe is it societies fault for not teaching me or us the true meaning of what it is we should be doing and not what we should not be doing. Maybe I'm going through a transitional period in my life where the things I thought mattered most actually don't really matter at all. Am I to continue living this way or should I drift away and create a whole new existence for me and those who I love in this world.

I currently am pondering my fate, well I understand my true fate but of the present here and now. Do I have the strength to open yet another chapter of a life which I now know I have no control of. Do I take it one day at a time and ultimately regret not stepping forward and opening the doors to who I really am. I'm full of self doubt lacking all forms of inspiration from the beliefs I have grown to know but now fail in every aspect of thought. Just reading back on what has been written it's not who I am It's who am I supposed to be.

Religion, Politics, Humanity all meanings of which I now know to be farcical. Why so many religions. After all there is supposed to be only one god why so many formats of the one being. Speaking like this to those who read this must make me a atheist but only to those that are religious but to the open minded person only human. If god is so prevalent in all religions then why has it caused so much hatred, war, crime, death and destruction. Surely God himself would say the opposite and promote love, sharing, community well-being and all the things that would benefit the planet in which we live in. If he created this then surely he did not mean for us a simple race to destroy it all. 

Politics is confusing in its own right. Governing bodies should have it in their own right to care for the most vunerable in society create policies to help stabilize the fears of the ordinary citizen. Well within their rights to create and put in place structures to benefit the planet as a whole call it mother natures helper. Instead all it seems to create is destruction be it land, people, animals and ultimately war, profits before anything else. Why not come together as one and treat all as one entity and manage this planet as one entity also.

Humanity is one that really puzzles me as I am a member. Why do we as a race presume we are the rightful owners to do what we like to pillage the earth for all its many fruits. From burning fossil fuel, clearing rain forests, polluting water and the air we breathe for what gain,certainly not for any other living creature on this planet. What is in our genes that would let us be fooled into believing that we have the solutions for every problem. Only thing I can see is greed and a lack of understanding and clarity as to who is the problem. It's my belief that the homo sapiens numbers currently are way to high for the planet to sustain. Why is this problem not being tackled. Put a cap on our numbers would be part of a solution to a more vibrant planet one which would last for at long as is possible.

There have been so many question as to why this is what this is and no definite answers.

Surely I'm not the only one who has doubts in all aspects of this life. Today was one where I had to express some of my thoughts and get some clarity. So I wrote this as I felt really Confused Today