Lost innocence

written 2004

Heart full of hurt 
Eyes full of tears 
Trying to play the part 
Trying to mask the fears 
  
Lurid liquid, sweet to taste 
More and more, without pace 
Intoxicated, vulnerable and free 
So much fun has an underlying fee 
  
Taken home by someone new 
Respond to his touch 
Almost on cue 
Consequences far from mind 
Slowly our bodies begin to grind 
  
A night of pleasure 
Days of pain 
Knowing it was all a game 
Laying in his bed, your body bare 
Letting go of your innocence 
Without a care 
Beside his body, trembling you lay 
Unsure now 
But you were willing to give it away 
  
Waking up in a strangers arms 
Naïve to the emotional harm 
The suns setting on my broken heart 
All along playing a part 
The shows over, curtain close 

And I am left indisposed 

Reviews

[sereenaoutloud]

oh those teenage years of drinking and partying and making such careless choices that we look back on and regret. We all make mistakes ..and that is just what they are Mistakes they are not who we are they are just choices we made. Thank you for sharing such an honest open write,,,so many young girls go through this and this could help many to be able to learn from it! great piece

[Millzy86]

thank you for you kind words I wrote this while recovering from the hangover of the careless decision lol

[sereenaoutloud]

oh the dreaded hangover :)) lol

[Jeyanthi]

when stuck up in needing force, it refrains to think whats right.
humans are always pry..!
Deeply moved by your writing. (now it could be more like awareness poem to me.)

[E G TEN]

Nicely done, very well put together, an innocence lost is a knowledge gain... Thanks for sharing your lovely poem! ;)

[sinNsincerity]

It may be over ten years old. but it's still a great wtite

[Perkele.7885]

Sacha, The game that our young lady is playing has stacked odds against her ever even breaking even and saving a respectable name. And for what! Some party sex, excitement, gifts, degradation, bruises, tears shame, defamation of character, drug addiction, a criminal record, unwanted pregnancies, abortions,
just pocket cash, etc, old before her time....and then if she lives through this period in her life....what man wants her?
this is life as we know it for the woman who is willing to throw her life away! Life is what it is on the seedy side of Eden!

[Millzy86]

we all make mistakes and we all have regrets to recognize that you are on the wrong path is the first step back to the right one this was written in 2004

[Perkele.7885]

If this is a true story and this person is eleven years on a path that she is proud to be on then, I applaud her! Everyone deserves redemption! I do not throw stones. I have been no angel but, God has given me grace with a promise divine. I wish this person success on her own path to wherever it takes her!

[Millzy86]

I was 18 at time I wrote it

[Perkele.7885]

Sacha, please keep writing good poetry, I'll keep reading the same!

[Coyote Poetry]

The taste of life, love and wine. Can lead us to dark places.
"A night of pleasure
Days of pain
Knowing it was all a game "
Game or not. We need to test life and hope for a good ending. I like the honest and direct tone in the words. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Millzy86]

thank you yes well everyone remembers their first time and often it's never how we plan it

[Coyote Poetry]

I agree and you are welcome.