Should I

I was reading a friend's blog and...this is my response.

Should I....?
Category: Life

Sitting here thinking.  Wondering if I'm worth something. Should I even be alive. Is there any reason for me? Does someone even love me?..... Sitting here think. I know I'm worth something, and no one tell me I'm not. Alive? Is anyone even alive or are we all dead and just don't know it. How do we know if were not all living in what we call HEAVEN or HELL as one, and no one is GOD and no one is the DEVIL. If it weren't for famliy and friends i would never be loved. Sitting here thinking. So in the end SHOULD I......? You fill in the blank.

 

 

Should I

Should I even be alive

 

 

 

 

becomes should I even care

 

 

 

 

becomes should I go on

 

 

 

 

 

 

just becomes

 

 

 

 

 

 

so should I?

 

 

 

 

should I grow?

 

 

 

 

should I push?

 

 

 

 

should I struggle and persevere, cry out and shed my tears, meet the pain, mete the pain?
is it worth it?

 

 

 

 

 

 

is it worth it?

 

 

 

 

 

 

worth the waiting

 

 

 

 

worth the wondering, the insecurity and the hoping

the remorse

 

 

 

 

worth the crying, the cold, the darkness, this unforgiving course

 

 

 

 

worth the talking and the glares, the fingers and the stares

 

 

 

 

is it worth it?

 

 

 

 

 

 

is it worth it for that feeling

 

 

 

 

the butterflies

 

 

 

 

the flutter

 

 

 

 

 

 

is it worth it for the calm, the peace, the freedom from the clutter

 

 

 

of the heart

 

 

 

 

and of the mind

 

 

 

 

and of the past far far behind

 

 

 

 

is it worth it?

 

 

is it? 

 

 

so should I?

will I?