The Red Room

I saw my fate

It was fueled by hate

I must change my ways

My death can wait

I was alone

My tomb was red

All had abandoned me

No one cared

And it would last forever

I could see you passing by

But you wouldn't see me

Like an animal

I was barred from you

And I held strong

To my fear and anger

My passing brought no tears

They fell only while I lived

My pride disgusted many

Only the dead smiled at me

My tomb was clean

But it felt as if every crevice

Was pouring out shadow

And remorse

I denied the world

I couldn't accept its imperfections

I laughed at its beliefs

And shattered its hope

I shamed my parents

And despised the time

We had together

I was given a bag

Full of dead birds

At the door of my father's house

It brought forth fear, confusion,

And realization of my wrongs

But I couldn't accept

The reality before me

For I was ignorant;

Selfish and prideful

And so they rid of me

And I raved like a lunatic

All the way to the Palms

But the suffering was too great

So I put on a mask

And smiled to freedom

The masquerade lasted a week

And she beared me for three

Again I was exiled

But not for long

At last I reunited

With Ms. Narcissus

I must not go

To the Red Room

I'm not here for myself

I'm not here for thee

I'm not here for the world

I'm here to be free