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#imtiredof hurting,

physically & emotionally.

No matter what I do,

it seems to get all fucked up.

Maybe it's the act of a

dimwitted annoying b***h

that put on daily. 

To let my true self be known

is to expose my vulnerability --

I don't know if that's wise.

#omgfacts

I can count on one hand,

and not need all 5 fingers,

the people who have NOT hurt me.

(This of course is only those I've let close)

When this trend is inevitable,

why put myself in its path incessantly?

#nowplaying a game of war & peace.

I want this turmoil to end,

I want to be happy & have a normal life.

(#thisismydream)

But I'm afraid I won't know how to be happy--

I've been miserable for far too long,

this my normalcy.

#youwerecooluntil you played me for a fool.

My foolishness is merely a facade,

and I see through yours entirely...

or so I let myself believe,

foolishly.

You want in? You want to know ME?

#emptypromises and #hollowwords escape

your lips, along with visions

of picket fences & the normalcy 

I desperately seek.

Let my guards down? Let you close?

#Thanksbutnothanks.

You flatter me, but in the end

we both know it'll end in suffering.

#Goodnight. 

Author's Note

So, this is a spur of the moment piece. Bored on Twitter, in my feelings. Half gone on Tylenol PM's so I can sleep through the back pain.